Metamorphosism

Positive affirmations

• Tomorrow my cello recital will be over and I shall still be alive
• If this flopping goldfish feeling in my chest is not a heart irregularity that kills me
• I know the music, the recital will go fine.
• Playing before other people can be a source of pleasure.
• Even if I make a mistake or two, no one will notice as long as I manage not to grimace and shake my head.
• Probably my hands won't sweat, and even if they do, that just makes it that much easier to slide my fingers up and down the strings.
• I will remember to breathe.
• I will remember to acknowledge the audience after performing this time, and not flee the stage blindly.
• My new cello will sound so fucking hot, especially following a bunch of cute little kids sawing half-sized Chinese instruments in two.
• I will remember to breathe. I will relax. I will not tremble noticeably. And even if I do, I can sell that as vibrato.